WORDS ARE MEANINGLESS
Tuesday, November 30, 2004
morning poetry
a tired soul with an eager heart
it's not easy but it's a start
like a bird refuse to fly
when love is the truth, should we choose to lie?
one thousand candles will lead the way
the door is open, unless you choose to stay
open your mind cos' the music's playin'
let your answers dance their way in.
[MM'04]
it's not easy but it's a start
like a bird refuse to fly
when love is the truth, should we choose to lie?
one thousand candles will lead the way
the door is open, unless you choose to stay
open your mind cos' the music's playin'
let your answers dance their way in.
[MM'04]
Wednesday, November 24, 2004
you could be my queen...
i wish...
i can argue your fear
answer your question
guarantee the future
justify all this...
i wish...
i can be certain
as certain as this feeling
i really do...
i'm sorry
but it is real...all real!
i can argue your fear
answer your question
guarantee the future
justify all this...
i wish...
i can be certain
as certain as this feeling
i really do...
i'm sorry
but it is real...all real!
Sunday, November 21, 2004
nov 20, 2004
you introduced me to life and so...i'm in it
you introduced me to love and so...it's in me
i'm forever thankful to be your son...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOM!
[MM'04]
you introduced me to love and so...it's in me
i'm forever thankful to be your son...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOM!
[MM'04]
Tuesday, November 16, 2004
my days have been interesting lately!
funny how life came with different surprises...
first of all, suddenly i found myself addicted to phone calls and sms',
everyone around me seem to notice this change. I guess i'm quite 'obvious'
I think i'm addicted to someone. I don't know if that person realize this, but i do hope so:)
second, a friend suddenly came with an interesting job offer! next thing i know i'm meeting her boss twice (first @mulia and then @upstair PS). the business is entertainment (music to be specific) and my job is to handle the creative and promotion area:) i havent made any decision though but i have to admit I am excited!
third, me, fadli and bin are working on an event!! funny how a simple chit chat can turn serious and how everything seems to fell right in place after that. I hope things will work out OK.
Thank God for everything, and I hope I'll always be under your guidance :)
funny how life came with different surprises...
first of all, suddenly i found myself addicted to phone calls and sms',
everyone around me seem to notice this change. I guess i'm quite 'obvious'
I think i'm addicted to someone. I don't know if that person realize this, but i do hope so:)
second, a friend suddenly came with an interesting job offer! next thing i know i'm meeting her boss twice (first @mulia and then @upstair PS). the business is entertainment (music to be specific) and my job is to handle the creative and promotion area:) i havent made any decision though but i have to admit I am excited!
third, me, fadli and bin are working on an event!! funny how a simple chit chat can turn serious and how everything seems to fell right in place after that. I hope things will work out OK.
Thank God for everything, and I hope I'll always be under your guidance :)
Friday, November 12, 2004
soundtrack of the heart
If I could see into your heart
Then would I know just where to start?
Because I'm lost and I need to be found
Crazy as it sounds
I need you around
If I could stand to be on my own
Then I would probably just leave you alone
But I'm gonna feel this way
till I'm six feet underground
Crazy as it sounds
I need you around
Turning, tossing and turning
My love is burning me down
If I could change one thing in this world
I'd change your mind and make you my girl
Because I'm lost and I need to be found
Crazy as it sounds
I need you around
I'm gonna feel this way till I'm six feet underground
Crazy as it sounds
I need you around
(need you around - the smoking popes)
*canggih emang ni lagu, every single word is relevant :p*
Then would I know just where to start?
Because I'm lost and I need to be found
Crazy as it sounds
I need you around
If I could stand to be on my own
Then I would probably just leave you alone
But I'm gonna feel this way
till I'm six feet underground
Crazy as it sounds
I need you around
Turning, tossing and turning
My love is burning me down
If I could change one thing in this world
I'd change your mind and make you my girl
Because I'm lost and I need to be found
Crazy as it sounds
I need you around
I'm gonna feel this way till I'm six feet underground
Crazy as it sounds
I need you around
(need you around - the smoking popes)
*canggih emang ni lagu, every single word is relevant :p*
whatever gets me through the day
what am i? where do i stand? what part should i play? which road should i take? is this it? where is the line? should i cross it? where will you take me? will you take me at all? are you happy? should i change? have you fell? how do you feel?
youre special! youre close to my heart! youre the one! come with me! this is it! this is the line! let's cross it! hold my hand! come with me! im happy! don't change! i've fallen! i feel fine!
make believe, let it live
justify, lullaby
make it real, if you feel
play along, if you dont
whatever it's worth, it's sure worth all the while
[MM'04]
youre special! youre close to my heart! youre the one! come with me! this is it! this is the line! let's cross it! hold my hand! come with me! im happy! don't change! i've fallen! i feel fine!
make believe, let it live
justify, lullaby
make it real, if you feel
play along, if you dont
whatever it's worth, it's sure worth all the while
[MM'04]
Wednesday, November 10, 2004
LET"S TALK HAPPINESS FOR A CHANGE (self encouragement part 2)
Lets try something new,
when misery is the new trend
and being mellow is the new fashion
let's talk happiness for a change
Try to brighten your heart
and wear an honest smile for once
Try saying, "I'm glad it happened"
instead of all those regrets
Try to sing along with the birds
cause they dont know any sad song
Try forgiving yourself
cause the world already did
we've all made mistakes
and from them we learn
how can you see the end of the rainbow
if you choose to be colorblind
its around us
but we often took it for granted
happiness is a choice mate,
choose it.
[MM'04]
when misery is the new trend
and being mellow is the new fashion
let's talk happiness for a change
Try to brighten your heart
and wear an honest smile for once
Try saying, "I'm glad it happened"
instead of all those regrets
Try to sing along with the birds
cause they dont know any sad song
Try forgiving yourself
cause the world already did
we've all made mistakes
and from them we learn
how can you see the end of the rainbow
if you choose to be colorblind
its around us
but we often took it for granted
happiness is a choice mate,
choose it.
[MM'04]
Tuesday, November 09, 2004
SELF ENCOURAGEMENT
so here you are
back to the place you know and love
the past is behind you
far enough not to distort your vision
but still close enough to learn from.
are you ready for this brand new dawn?
sure you must go thru days and nights
but thats the only way to get there
embrace your fear and anticipation
cause they will keep you awake
but they shouldn't slow you down.
you cannot guarantee something
you-yourself have no control over
tomorrow is a mistery for everyone.
all you can give for tomorrow
is the spirit in mind
and for today,
cherish every moment with all your heart.
[MM'04]
back to the place you know and love
the past is behind you
far enough not to distort your vision
but still close enough to learn from.
are you ready for this brand new dawn?
sure you must go thru days and nights
but thats the only way to get there
embrace your fear and anticipation
cause they will keep you awake
but they shouldn't slow you down.
you cannot guarantee something
you-yourself have no control over
tomorrow is a mistery for everyone.
all you can give for tomorrow
is the spirit in mind
and for today,
cherish every moment with all your heart.
[MM'04]
Monday, November 08, 2004
INSTALLMENT WIZARD
DELETE OLD MEMORIES AND CLOSE ANY OTHER RELATIONSHIP BEFORE CONTINUING.
thats what appeared on the screen. So I sat back trying to think about it. Is it really the problem? Is that the reason why it is hard to run the new program?
I looked at the history file, and read them carefully one by one, only not in detail, cos i know that might cause system breakdown.
I went thru the file name and trying to remember how they all started. I dont remember facing this kind of problem before. No, never face this much anticipation. It started to bother me. Why does the system became too defensive.
I clicked the HELP button, and typed in 'what causes the increase of anticipation level?'
and the answer appeared in seconds.
I read it carefully and as I went thru each words I began to understand.
"The system anticipation level always refer to past circumstances and incidents. The history files always record new system problem and bad experiences, for defensive purposes. Therefor it might be necessary to delete some memories in the history files to be able to run a new program so that it will run properly."
One more question in my mind, why do I have to close ather relationship?
So I clicked the 'back' button in the help page, and typed that question.
and this was the answer i get:
"Your system can only focus on one program settings. Running two or more program might cause conflict in system priority mode. It is strongly recommended that you focus on one program only although you may not be sure about the compatibility or the durability of that program."
thats what appeared on the screen. So I sat back trying to think about it. Is it really the problem? Is that the reason why it is hard to run the new program?
I looked at the history file, and read them carefully one by one, only not in detail, cos i know that might cause system breakdown.
I went thru the file name and trying to remember how they all started. I dont remember facing this kind of problem before. No, never face this much anticipation. It started to bother me. Why does the system became too defensive.
I clicked the HELP button, and typed in 'what causes the increase of anticipation level?'
and the answer appeared in seconds.
I read it carefully and as I went thru each words I began to understand.
"The system anticipation level always refer to past circumstances and incidents. The history files always record new system problem and bad experiences, for defensive purposes. Therefor it might be necessary to delete some memories in the history files to be able to run a new program so that it will run properly."
One more question in my mind, why do I have to close ather relationship?
So I clicked the 'back' button in the help page, and typed that question.
and this was the answer i get:
"Your system can only focus on one program settings. Running two or more program might cause conflict in system priority mode. It is strongly recommended that you focus on one program only although you may not be sure about the compatibility or the durability of that program."
Sunday, November 07, 2004
COFFEE SHOP scene no.1
A = The man sitting at the corner looking out the window
B = The mysterious guy sitting across the man at the corner
B. "Hey, Are you ok?"
A. (still looking out the window)
B. "Hellooo, anyone there?"
A. "Oh sorry...What did you say?"
B. "Are you ok, man? You're miles away just now"
A. "I'm fine, c'mon, what are you talking about?"
B. "Who is she?"
A. "What??, Who is who? What do you mean?"
B. "C'mon you can't fool me fellow, It's written in your face like the headline of sunday's newspaper."
A. "I just have a lot in my mind, that's all, besides, why does it always have to be about women?"
B. "Cos I know you better mate, hehe"
A. "Get lost! and get me another coffee while you're at it"
B. "OK, but I'm not done with you yet"
A. "Whatever"
B. "Hahahaha"
(to be continued)
B = The mysterious guy sitting across the man at the corner
B. "Hey, Are you ok?"
A. (still looking out the window)
B. "Hellooo, anyone there?"
A. "Oh sorry...What did you say?"
B. "Are you ok, man? You're miles away just now"
A. "I'm fine, c'mon, what are you talking about?"
B. "Who is she?"
A. "What??, Who is who? What do you mean?"
B. "C'mon you can't fool me fellow, It's written in your face like the headline of sunday's newspaper."
A. "I just have a lot in my mind, that's all, besides, why does it always have to be about women?"
B. "Cos I know you better mate, hehe"
A. "Get lost! and get me another coffee while you're at it"
B. "OK, but I'm not done with you yet"
A. "Whatever"
B. "Hahahaha"
(to be continued)
Saturday, November 06, 2004
God Help Us
Do you realize
That everyone you know someday will die?
And instead of saying all of your good-byes
Let them know you realize that life goes fast
It's hard to make the good things last
You realize the sun doesn't go down
It's just an illusion caused by the world spinning round
(taken from: 'do you realize' - Flaming Lips)
God help Us from this crazy world we livin in, may we always be in your path and under you guidance. Please remind us to be ever thankful for each moments, Amen.
(this post is dedicated to all victims of armed robbery and violence)
That everyone you know someday will die?
And instead of saying all of your good-byes
Let them know you realize that life goes fast
It's hard to make the good things last
You realize the sun doesn't go down
It's just an illusion caused by the world spinning round
(taken from: 'do you realize' - Flaming Lips)
God help Us from this crazy world we livin in, may we always be in your path and under you guidance. Please remind us to be ever thankful for each moments, Amen.
(this post is dedicated to all victims of armed robbery and violence)
Thursday, November 04, 2004
ACTION-REACTION
Draw me a question mark, and I'll look for an answer
Draw me a battle, and I'll prepare to fight
Draw me a glass, and I'll fill it with water
Draw me a horse, and I'll be the knight
Draw me a vase, and I'll pick the flower
Draw me a pair of wings, and I'll learn to fly
Draw me a castle, and I'll climb the tower
Or give me the brush, and I'll paint stars in your sky
[MM'04]
Draw me a battle, and I'll prepare to fight
Draw me a glass, and I'll fill it with water
Draw me a horse, and I'll be the knight
Draw me a vase, and I'll pick the flower
Draw me a pair of wings, and I'll learn to fly
Draw me a castle, and I'll climb the tower
Or give me the brush, and I'll paint stars in your sky
[MM'04]
i'm sorry my man!
I'm sorry my friend,
my self preservation and self control are very weak at the moment...
my conscious warned me but my ego was stronger
I dont know how I can make it up to you, but I will try.
Sorry ya Jack!!! Lagi agak kacau nih huehehehehe
my self preservation and self control are very weak at the moment...
my conscious warned me but my ego was stronger
I dont know how I can make it up to you, but I will try.
Sorry ya Jack!!! Lagi agak kacau nih huehehehehe
Wednesday, November 03, 2004
you, me and eternity
come come baby
take a chance with me
I might be your answer
your written destiny
The risk maybe high
but safe is boring
I might be your mistake
but the one you wont mind making
set your mind free
let boundaries fade
we're wiser now
cos' of the wrong choices we made
and if it turns out right
you, me and eternity
we will remember this day
you took your chance with me.
[MM'04]
take a chance with me
I might be your answer
your written destiny
The risk maybe high
but safe is boring
I might be your mistake
but the one you wont mind making
set your mind free
let boundaries fade
we're wiser now
cos' of the wrong choices we made
and if it turns out right
you, me and eternity
we will remember this day
you took your chance with me.
[MM'04]
I'm only happy when it rains
YAYYY!!!
akhirnya ujan juga.....walaupun bentar tapi deres!!
jadi inget lagunya GROOVE ARMADA
"pulang yuk baby....ujan deres"......"pulang yuk baby.....ujan deres"
hehehehehehehehe
akhirnya ujan juga.....walaupun bentar tapi deres!!
jadi inget lagunya GROOVE ARMADA
"pulang yuk baby....ujan deres"......"pulang yuk baby.....ujan deres"
hehehehehehehehe
Tuesday, November 02, 2004
Then there was music and wonderful roses...
TILL THERE WAS YOU
There were bells on a hill
But I never heard them ringing
No I never heard them at all
Till there was you
There were birds
in the sky
But I never saw them winging
No I never saw them at all
Till there was you
Then there was music and wonderful roses They tell me
in sweet fragrant meadows of dawn, and you
There was love all around
But I never heard it singing
No I never heard it at all
Till there was you
Then there was music and wonderful roses They tell me
in sweet fragrant meadows of dawn, and you
There was love all around
But I never heard it singing
No I never heard it at all
Till there was you...Till... there was you
Ini lagu mengenai Influence :) atau dampak yang ditimbulkan seseorang atau sesuatu terhadap diri kita.
Lagu tentang bagaimana kehadiran seseorang bisa merubah cara seseorang memandang kehidupan di sekitarnya (ngok!)
Jadi ingat lagu yang ditulis bin harlan (orangnya nelfon pas gue baru aja ngetik namanya! SPOOKY!!) di kamar kost saya senin kemarin bersama andrilemes, yang liriknya tentang bagaimana lagu lagu favorit dari band band favorit menjadi ACUAN seseorang dalam menulis lagunya sendiri, hehehe lagu tentang anak band banget deh pokoknya!!
Personally, buat gue ada lagu lagu yang bikin gue jadi pingin bikin lagu, padahal dengerinnya iseng doang hehehe. Salah satunya ya lagu diatas ini deh, Damn, I wish I wrote that song (Duh! its Beatles, you wish you wrote all their songs)
yah at least i wanna dedicate this song buat semua yang sudah meng-INFLUENCE gue selama ini (apaa sehh), artistically, musically, romantically(auw auw), spiritually. etc.
"There was love all around
But I never heard it singing
No I never heard it at all
Till there was you...Till... there was you"
There were bells on a hill
But I never heard them ringing
No I never heard them at all
Till there was you
There were birds
in the sky
But I never saw them winging
No I never saw them at all
Till there was you
Then there was music and wonderful roses They tell me
in sweet fragrant meadows of dawn, and you
There was love all around
But I never heard it singing
No I never heard it at all
Till there was you
Then there was music and wonderful roses They tell me
in sweet fragrant meadows of dawn, and you
There was love all around
But I never heard it singing
No I never heard it at all
Till there was you...Till... there was you
Ini lagu mengenai Influence :) atau dampak yang ditimbulkan seseorang atau sesuatu terhadap diri kita.
Lagu tentang bagaimana kehadiran seseorang bisa merubah cara seseorang memandang kehidupan di sekitarnya (ngok!)
Jadi ingat lagu yang ditulis bin harlan (orangnya nelfon pas gue baru aja ngetik namanya! SPOOKY!!) di kamar kost saya senin kemarin bersama andrilemes, yang liriknya tentang bagaimana lagu lagu favorit dari band band favorit menjadi ACUAN seseorang dalam menulis lagunya sendiri, hehehe lagu tentang anak band banget deh pokoknya!!
Personally, buat gue ada lagu lagu yang bikin gue jadi pingin bikin lagu, padahal dengerinnya iseng doang hehehe. Salah satunya ya lagu diatas ini deh, Damn, I wish I wrote that song (Duh! its Beatles, you wish you wrote all their songs)
yah at least i wanna dedicate this song buat semua yang sudah meng-INFLUENCE gue selama ini (apaa sehh), artistically, musically, romantically(auw auw), spiritually. etc.
"There was love all around
But I never heard it singing
No I never heard it at all
Till there was you...Till... there was you"
menulis menulis menulis
hore, saya menulis lagi...
atas dorongan teman teman dari 'the conference' saya akhirnya bikin jurnal (lagi).
dukungan terbesar datang dari vreda yang ngasih personal guarantee that if I start writing now, suatu saat I can make something out of it, she said I have talent hihihi:)
Well, its another hot day in november, the rain seems to forget his way back to Indonesia this season. I hope it will come soon though (yah paling gak mendung mendung lah!)
I miss walking down the street after the rain, I miss the scent of wet soil, I miss the cool breeze that reminds you that christmas is coming soon :) I miss the thrill of missing someone, or something, or missing a certain moment in life when you're staring into the rain.
Hmm... interesting how Rain seems to relate to many memories to me.
atas dorongan teman teman dari 'the conference' saya akhirnya bikin jurnal (lagi).
dukungan terbesar datang dari vreda yang ngasih personal guarantee that if I start writing now, suatu saat I can make something out of it, she said I have talent hihihi:)
Well, its another hot day in november, the rain seems to forget his way back to Indonesia this season. I hope it will come soon though (yah paling gak mendung mendung lah!)
I miss walking down the street after the rain, I miss the scent of wet soil, I miss the cool breeze that reminds you that christmas is coming soon :) I miss the thrill of missing someone, or something, or missing a certain moment in life when you're staring into the rain.
Hmm... interesting how Rain seems to relate to many memories to me.
