WORDS ARE MEANINGLESS

"you're still young, that's your fault, there's so much you have to go through"


Dear Dad

It's strange, but somehow I can really feel your presence last night in my room
when I was alone.
I was reading the first chapter of this book I always wanted to read, then suddenly,
you flashed by in and out of my thought.
It was like you can see through me and sense what I'm feeling at that moment.
And I felt like you were trying to tell me something. Something comforting I believe.
It's peculiar, because I don't remember sharing these kinds of problem with you back then.
All we share was achievements, victory, competitions in school, sport, and things like that.
I remember telling you how many goals I score, how many points I score in a basketball game, I remember telling you my team won the basketball tournament the minute I stepped into the door. And mostly I remember when you call me at the campus when you've found out I've received a full scholarship from the school :) I can sense pride in your voice and that was one of the proudest day in my live.

But we never talk much about anything else in life. Makes me wonder, what advice will you give to me if I share you these kinds of problem, life, relationship, making decisions.
Last night, I felt a bit of regret bout the fact that there are many things I havent learn from you.
And suddenly I felt the angels was cooking onions in the room last night hehehe.
I miss you dad,
I know if you're here you will trust me with my thoughts and let me take my own responsibilities, learn from my mistakes, to get up & be a man.

I hope I'll grow to be the person you always wanted me to be :)

With love,
Mickey


"take your time, think a lot, think of everything you got,
for you may still be here tomorrow, but your dreams may not."

(quotes taken from Elton John's 'Father & Son')